Wednesday, October 9, 2013

It's either an update or a blip

Sam slept away most of Tuesday. What little food he ate he threw up. I don't know if this is the stomach flu or progression of the cancer. Only time will tell.

His sleepy day was followed by a restless and wakeful night. Is that because he slept the day away, or is the tumor confusing his days and nights? Only time will tell.

I don't know if I should be bracing myself for the end, or if he'll bounce back and we'll get a few more weeks. Just Monday night, John and I were talking about Sam celebrating Halloween. Now it's changing on me. 

I'm terrified of what's to come.


  1. He is so amazing and strong and resilient. Hospice thought July was the end and Sammy was smiling and engaging in August and still laughing at fart jokes in September. I have never hoped for something to be from a stomach virus before, but now I am hoping hoping that it is "just" a bug that will pass quickly.